my mission

I got the idea for this blog from an article in a magazine. I am tired of being overweight. It is affecting every aspect of my life and I'm SICK OF IT!! I'm asking my friends and family (and anyone else) to follow this blog to help me keep on track. I figure if I know people are watching me, I'll be more inclined to follow through (because I seriously lack follow through!).

I (like most people, I'm sure) keep unflattering pictures of myself out of view of ANYONE as much as I can. But I have decided in this blog I am not going to hide from the truth! I am going to get serious and face reality because despite how much I wish it wasn't true, anyone who see me in person sees what I look like whether I like it or not.

One thing I have to be very careful of in my mission to get healthier and lose fat, is that I am currently breastfeeding my 6 week old daughter, "B." I have to make sure I am consuming enough calories each day to feed both of us. So for now I'm going to try to focus on eating more healthy foods, less crap and becoming MUCH more active.

Most of my days consist of sitting at home with "B" and her 3 year old sister "E." One of the reasons I want to make adjustments to my life is that I don't feel like my children (especially "E" right now), nor my husband, are getting the best of me. They are getting a large, incapable, uninvolved shell of who I want to be. I want to be the mom going down the slide and climbing around on the play structures, jumping around and dancing, going swimming (or even just wearing shorts) but the reality is, I'm not comfortable doing so in my present state, and it honestly causes me physical pain to try to do most of these things. I don't want to spend one more minute like this, let alone the rest of my life (or theirs)!

So, here goes attempt # who-knows-how-many to lose all this extra weight and keep it off FOREVER!! :D