don't know what to say

I haven't posted anything for awhile for a couple of reasons, #1 my aunt passed away on Jan 28, so I've been a bit preoccupied with other things, and #2 what I really want to say... well, I don't know how to say it.  I don't want to offend anyone, so I've been trying to figure out how to approach it.  But, tonight I am tired, so I'll do it another time.  I don't know how I feel about how things are going, I haven't been active, I feel like I've been making some better food choices, but I have spent quite a bit of time at my parents' house lately, so things like chocolate cake with peanut butter cream cheese icing, oreos, potato chips, etc. are readily available, and if it's there, I'm going to eat it because I LOVE it!  LOL  so... OH!  I went to my post pardum check up on friday which was the first time I have been on a scale since "B" was born.  I currently weigh 247 pounds which is only 10 pounds less than I weighed the day "B" was born.  and she was 8lbs 8oz, so... apparently I'm not doing very well at losing this weight.  lol

I did find an article in a magazine about losing pregnancy weight that had meal and snack options to chose from that I might try.  The weather has been nicer lately so I think maybe tomorrow I'll try to get out with the girls.