I'm wondering if I should be writing down what I eat so I can figure out my caloric intake, but I really don't want to and I don't think I'd be very consistent with it.
I noticed yesterday that everytime I'm conscious of what I'm eating I eat more, or at least I become aware of how much/often I usually eat. But this morning I woke up to a grumbling stomach which hasn't happened for as long as I can remember. Not sure what that means. I want to think it means I ate less yesterday than normal, but at the same time, I'm concerned about the breastfeeding thing and making sure I'm consuming enough calories for both of us.
I haven't been outside to get any activity because the weather has been pretty crappy, so maybe today I'll work in some activity inside?
I've been sipping on coffee the last 2 days, which I'm a bit torn on. I really don't want to be caffeinating "B," and I was quite adamant with "E" that I wouldn't drink caffeine while nursing, but even just sipping on one cup of coffee throughout the day seems to be very helpful at keeping my energy up to get things done.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Walked "E" to Dance
"E" has dance class Tuesday afternoons, so today rather than driving her up the street, I made an extra effort to get her ready early so we had time to walk. I bundled the girls up and "E" walked with me half of the way, but in true 3 year old fashion, she stopped every five seconds to pick up a leaf or nasty trash that someone had dropped along the road saying "we don't want garbage everywhere." Luckily today was garbage day so there were garbage cans out at every driveway to toss it in. I love that she wants to keep the world clean, but it's really quite nasty when she picks up an old fry sauce container that has god-knows-what sticky goop all over it.
My sister told me the other day that "E" is just like me. I'm not exactly sure how she meant, but I'm going to assume that's a good thing. LOL
So on this walk, even tho I was going at a 3 year old pace, my toes went numb, my calves and hamstrings were burning and I could feel myself struggling to keep any kind of consistent pace. Then when I got home I started to get a bit of a headache, but it didn't actually come. It really disturbs me that I am SO out of shape. But I must plug in here how much I LOVE our B.O.B dualie. What an awesome stroller!! I know pregnancy can take a lot out of a body, expecially since I didn't really do anything to rebuild it since "E" was born, but I've got a LONG way to go to get my body back into a healthy state!
On the food front: I feel like I did OK today. We had a DiGiorno spinach mushroom and garlic pizza for lunch and I'm sure I had at least one piece too many (I ate 3) but I had a sensible breakfast (nonfat cherry yogurt, some cashews and ... I can't remember what else) and Husband made whole grain spaghetti with homemade marinara sauce for dinner. I'm already noticing that my problem is going to lie mostly in my snack foods. I am most certainly addicted to sugar. I CRAVE chocolate. And I have decided, like I said, that I am going to stay realistic in my efforts. I know I'll never stop eating sugar, chocolate, pie, cake, etc. We'll just call them "treats." I tried to cut them out of my diet completely once before and I did loose quite a bit of weight and I did feel great, but it backfired in the end. So this time I'm just going to try to keep them to a minimum.
I think this blogging thing is already helping. Tonight after dinner (we usually eat around 5ish so I end up snacking later because I don't usually go to bed until around 10) when I was scanning through the fridge and cupboards, I thought about what I would have to report to the world that I had eaten, but I did still end up eating a packet of organic toaster pastries (I'm going to try to remember next time that I don't HAVE to eat both of them) a glass of nonfat milk and a cascadian farms chocolate chip granola bar. Still ended up with sugar, but I did forgo the ice cream I really wanted to eat. AND this afternoon I consciously took a handful of chips out of the bag to snack on rather than just eating them out of the bag (and inevitably eating them all).
On the water front: I definitely didn't drink enough water today. Aside from the regular 8 glasses that are recommended for everyone to drink per day, I have to make sure I get even more than that to keep my milk supply up. This is also something that I am REALLY going to have to work on.
My sister told me the other day that "E" is just like me. I'm not exactly sure how she meant, but I'm going to assume that's a good thing. LOL
So on this walk, even tho I was going at a 3 year old pace, my toes went numb, my calves and hamstrings were burning and I could feel myself struggling to keep any kind of consistent pace. Then when I got home I started to get a bit of a headache, but it didn't actually come. It really disturbs me that I am SO out of shape. But I must plug in here how much I LOVE our B.O.B dualie. What an awesome stroller!! I know pregnancy can take a lot out of a body, expecially since I didn't really do anything to rebuild it since "E" was born, but I've got a LONG way to go to get my body back into a healthy state!
On the food front: I feel like I did OK today. We had a DiGiorno spinach mushroom and garlic pizza for lunch and I'm sure I had at least one piece too many (I ate 3) but I had a sensible breakfast (nonfat cherry yogurt, some cashews and ... I can't remember what else) and Husband made whole grain spaghetti with homemade marinara sauce for dinner. I'm already noticing that my problem is going to lie mostly in my snack foods. I am most certainly addicted to sugar. I CRAVE chocolate. And I have decided, like I said, that I am going to stay realistic in my efforts. I know I'll never stop eating sugar, chocolate, pie, cake, etc. We'll just call them "treats." I tried to cut them out of my diet completely once before and I did loose quite a bit of weight and I did feel great, but it backfired in the end. So this time I'm just going to try to keep them to a minimum.
I think this blogging thing is already helping. Tonight after dinner (we usually eat around 5ish so I end up snacking later because I don't usually go to bed until around 10) when I was scanning through the fridge and cupboards, I thought about what I would have to report to the world that I had eaten, but I did still end up eating a packet of organic toaster pastries (I'm going to try to remember next time that I don't HAVE to eat both of them) a glass of nonfat milk and a cascadian farms chocolate chip granola bar. Still ended up with sugar, but I did forgo the ice cream I really wanted to eat. AND this afternoon I consciously took a handful of chips out of the bag to snack on rather than just eating them out of the bag (and inevitably eating them all).
On the water front: I definitely didn't drink enough water today. Aside from the regular 8 glasses that are recommended for everyone to drink per day, I have to make sure I get even more than that to keep my milk supply up. This is also something that I am REALLY going to have to work on.
Monday, January 25, 2010
my mission
I got the idea for this blog from an article in a magazine. I am tired of being overweight. It is affecting every aspect of my life and I'm SICK OF IT!! I'm asking my friends and family (and anyone else) to follow this blog to help me keep on track. I figure if I know people are watching me, I'll be more inclined to follow through (because I seriously lack follow through!).
I (like most people, I'm sure) keep unflattering pictures of myself out of view of ANYONE as much as I can. But I have decided in this blog I am not going to hide from the truth! I am going to get serious and face reality because despite how much I wish it wasn't true, anyone who see me in person sees what I look like whether I like it or not.
One thing I have to be very careful of in my mission to get healthier and lose fat, is that I am currently breastfeeding my 6 week old daughter, "B." I have to make sure I am consuming enough calories each day to feed both of us. So for now I'm going to try to focus on eating more healthy foods, less crap and becoming MUCH more active.
Most of my days consist of sitting at home with "B" and her 3 year old sister "E." One of the reasons I want to make adjustments to my life is that I don't feel like my children (especially "E" right now), nor my husband, are getting the best of me. They are getting a large, incapable, uninvolved shell of who I want to be. I want to be the mom going down the slide and climbing around on the play structures, jumping around and dancing, going swimming (or even just wearing shorts) but the reality is, I'm not comfortable doing so in my present state, and it honestly causes me physical pain to try to do most of these things. I don't want to spend one more minute like this, let alone the rest of my life (or theirs)!
So, here goes attempt # who-knows-how-many to lose all this extra weight and keep it off FOREVER!! :D
I (like most people, I'm sure) keep unflattering pictures of myself out of view of ANYONE as much as I can. But I have decided in this blog I am not going to hide from the truth! I am going to get serious and face reality because despite how much I wish it wasn't true, anyone who see me in person sees what I look like whether I like it or not.
One thing I have to be very careful of in my mission to get healthier and lose fat, is that I am currently breastfeeding my 6 week old daughter, "B." I have to make sure I am consuming enough calories each day to feed both of us. So for now I'm going to try to focus on eating more healthy foods, less crap and becoming MUCH more active.
Most of my days consist of sitting at home with "B" and her 3 year old sister "E." One of the reasons I want to make adjustments to my life is that I don't feel like my children (especially "E" right now), nor my husband, are getting the best of me. They are getting a large, incapable, uninvolved shell of who I want to be. I want to be the mom going down the slide and climbing around on the play structures, jumping around and dancing, going swimming (or even just wearing shorts) but the reality is, I'm not comfortable doing so in my present state, and it honestly causes me physical pain to try to do most of these things. I don't want to spend one more minute like this, let alone the rest of my life (or theirs)!
So, here goes attempt # who-knows-how-many to lose all this extra weight and keep it off FOREVER!! :D
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